Why i interest in missionary doctor?

I was receiving Jesus as my Savior when I was just 4 years old. Since that, I and my mother pray about my future. I really want to become a missionary doctor since that day.

I live in a small village in West Borneo. When I was in elementary school, I have to go to my school by school bus for an hour. Every day when I passed through some villages, I saw lots of children walk to their school without any shoes even sandals; they walk using their own foot.  Surely, this situation describe their family life, I imagine how their parents works very hard to survive their life.  They parent have to works hard with minimum wages. They health life also in a bad habits, there is no one who wants to help them. In this bad health life situation, I really wish that I could help them to teach them how to manage good health life, keep the clean circumstances or help their sick family members.

I interested in medicine because of rural people. I love them so much. I really want to help them, to cure them, take care of them and telling them that there are still fraction people who cares about them. There are so many doctors in Indonesia with kind of differences backgrounds. Generally, the doctors became a doctor because they would like to cure sick people too, but doctors with missionary heart are rarely. We do not cure sick people, God do. But, I’m sure that God using doctor as a link. By the doctors’ hand, God wants to tell us that He is the only one who can cure people in their sickness, even the most difficult disease. I choose medicine because this job help lots of sick people using their own hand, not like the other job such as: engineer or musician. We can see the real condition in society.

I live in Palembang right now with my uncle’s family. They have a ministry, called “Yabes Ministry”. It is a ministry to help broken family. Every Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday we go to suburb in Palembang. We meet lots of rural and broken family who wants to be healed. They are really hungry of God’s words. They love God so much. They are very brave to do self-sacrifice, leave their job as brick makers just to join Christian gathering. In that gathering, we worship God and involve in prayer, toughen each other. I love this Christian community so much. But, what about their health life? We cannot find the solution until now because there is no doctor in our ministry. This is one of my prayer, help them especially in health.

If I become a doctor, I will use it to provide good health care for the people of Indonesia in the future with all of my heart. I will help people as hard as I can. I really wish that God will be rejoiced through me, I want to cure people and also to tell them about Jesus. People have to know that Jesus is the only one who can save us from the hell by His death in the cross.

Why Medicine?

                Being a doctor means you interact with humans directly. It is different from other occupations such as engineer, technician or scientist. Furthermore, the doctor has a clear objective: to cure people.

I choose medicine as stepping stone for my career because health problems are still the most important. As we know, there are so many medical professionals in Indonesia but the fact, our country still faces many health problems. That’s the reason why I would like to be a doctor who do small little things but work effectively for the people who need it.

                I do believe that through the health department, especially medicine I could get closer to people. And when I get closer to them, it would be easier for me to socialize the information, knowledge, and health issues even teach them how to keep healthy lifestyle. Besides, I could also educate many important things for instance how to read, write, and also to share about the Savior for their life.

                Nowadays, there are lots of the priest come into the villages to do evangelism. Rural communities still consider that the priest not only service about the Bible but also cure them. They would come together to the priest. That is not such a wrong opinion, but the priest is not a medical professional. Priests have no idea about the treatment they have to do to cure kinds of diseases. They do not have medical back ground. Finally, priest can only pray for them without doing medical treatment of course. I see that as my opportunity to make little movement where a doctor can either cure people or pray for them. One think I will do for sure is how to educate them about living healthy life style for a better life.

                In addition, not everybody knows that being a doctor is not such an easy job as what they think. Common people see it as a luxurious job. In fact, it needs effort, challenges and knowledge. You even cannot hope much for the salary. A lot of doctor’s candidates still worry about their future life; how to fulfill their needs or their family. So, that’s why many people give up being a missionary doctor. In this case, I would like to share that my true intention is about serving others with all I have. I ever thought about this case, about my future also, sometimes I feel worried with the mission, but I do believe when I service without a condition, God will bless me.

                               

                That’s why I am totally willing to become a doctor. A doctor who has heart about missionary. I would love to get involved to rural communities especially the poor. When they come to me, I will do my best as either a doctor or the priest. Having a dream to be a doctor is like an amazing gift that God has given in my heart. I will give my best to reach my ambition.

i wonder some how..
                                    how life could be. 
                                    will it become good?
                                    fun?
                                    or will it be worse?                              

and when i think about worse things, i started feels like i can't do anything.  even, going outside isn't in my daily schedule.

beating with my own mind, its really...tiring.
amusing.

"But today if i loose my hope,

please tel me that Your plans are better than mine."

Perahu Kertas

Perahu kertas ku kan melaju
membawa surat cinta bagimu
kata-kata yang sedikit gila
tapi ini adanya

Perahu kertas mengingatkan ku
betapa ajaib hidup ini
mencari-cari tambatan hati
kau sahabatku sendiri

Hidupkan lagi mimpi-mimpi , cita-cita
cinta-cinta......
yang lama ku pendam sendiri

berdua ku bisa percaya

Ku bahagia kau telah terlahir di dunia
dan kau ada di antara milyaran manusia
dan ku bisa dengan radar ku menemukan mu

Tiada lagi yang mampu berdiri
halangi rasa ku, cinta ku pada mu

One Sweet Day

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it’s too late to hold you
’cause you’ve flown away
So far away
Ayyy

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
(together)
One sweet day
Evetually I’ll see you in heaven...

Darling, I never showed you (I never showed you)
Assumed you’d always be there (I thought you’d always be there)
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
( but I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
( together)
One sweet day
evnetually I’ll see you in heaven

Although the sun will never shine the same
I’ll always look to a brighter day
Yeah
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
(mc: together)
One sweet day

And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way
And I know eventually we’ll be together
( together)
One sweet day

  sorry I never told you (oooh) all I wanted to say
 ----

Dearest my little sista....

begitu rindu untuk share hal ini ke tmn2,
thanks buat ka Ida yg kirim kata2 indah ini waktu aku merasa minder dgn diriku sendiri,merasa kecil dan bgitu ga berarti. i was really in tears.
love you so!


keanggunan seorang wanita
     tidaklah terletak pada caranya berjalan;
     caranya duduk ato berdiri;
     bahkan tidak juga pada bagaimana caranya dy makan--
TETAPI keanggunan wanita yg sejati akan tampak pada
     ketulusannya dalam berbelaskasihan;
     kelemahlembutannya ketika menghadapi pertentangan;
     dan kerendahanhatinya saat melihat kenyataan tak seperti harapannya--
keanggunan dan ketenangan sejati didapat hanya-dan HANYA-dari lutut yg bertelut dihadapan TUHAN....


chayooo dek... :)
Cintailah dirimu..dirimu..dirimu sendiri terlebih dahulu..
terimalah dirimu..dirimu..apa adanya TUHAN menciptakanmu..
dan kemudian,, belajarlah dariNYA..
bahwa DIA melihat km baik..dan mencintaiMU..
terimalah cintaNYA dalam hatimu dan izinkanlah DIA menerangi langkahmu selanjutnya..!!


tetap semangat ya dek...!!
spesial buat dek Ia:
    yg rindu jd wanita yg anggun dan tenang--
   km akan dapatkan itu sepaket dgn relasimu yg dekat dgn NYA,, percaya deyh...!!! ;)
juga buat adek2 kyu yg terkasih d Serukam..kalian cantik dan berharga,, berbahagialah..!!

luph u all,, n miss u much..!
*muach*..huge love n pray buat Xan..chayooo!! chayoooo!!

Our ABBA Father Won't Lie

All things are possible for HIM. GOD will make a way for us.

This came to my mind ...
CHRIST will always make a way for us when there is no way out. Don't look at the natural circumstances. HE is above your circumstances. Read the following promises HE has for us.


"I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?
" Jeremiah 32:27


"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
Matthew 19:26


" ...I will never turn away anyone who comes to me." John 6:37

Pray and present your request to Him according to Philippians 4:6,7

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need" Hebrews 4:16

If we have present our requests to our LORD,rest assured that we have HIS answers according to HIS promises.

Numbers 23:19: “God is not a man, that He should lie, nor a son of man, that He should repent. Has He said, and will He not do? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?”

1 Samuel 15:29: “And also the Strength of Israel will not lie nor relent. For He is not a man, that He should relent.

CHRIST will make a way for us when there seem to be no way ^^