i wonder some how..
                                    how life could be. 
                                    will it become good?
                                    fun?
                                    or will it be worse?                              

and when i think about worse things, i started feels like i can't do anything.  even, going outside isn't in my daily schedule.

beating with my own mind, its really...tiring.
amusing.

"But today if i loose my hope,

please tel me that Your plans are better than mine."